I have reached a point in my life where no wall or avoidance or denial – no cause or excuse – can keep the rawness of life from running through me. This is scary, at times the vulnerability of it is devastating. It has left me preoccupied with death.
I wonder and as much as I can, I even believe that the same energy that brings the rawness from my subconscious to my conscious, can also heal. The very same impermanence-with the right skills- can be used to soothe my soul with the understanding that even the deepest pain will pass.